I want to live to 120

Writing a blog is hard!

I hate to start with the conventional starts… I am a school teacher…

I am a mom of three… I am married… I live in Massachusetts.

I am all of those things but none of it really describes me.

I want to live to 120.  I recently passed the 50 mark and it scared me.  Am I at the half-way point?  What’s the second half like?  I don’t want to get old.  I don’t want to get diseases and lose mobility or my senses.  I want to experience more.

I want to lose weight.  I have joined fitness programs and lost weight but it doesn’t last.  I have gone on too many diets to list.  I hate feeling unhealthy.   I want to start a new career.  I have been a lawyer, a stay-at-home mom and now a full time teacher at a public school.  I just completed a program to become an administrator but is that really the change I want?  I want to move out of cold Massachusetts.  I want to live on the beach on an island.  I want to make a change in the lives of the children I teach.  I want to be a good role model for them and inspire them to make a difference.  Are these desires at cross purposes?

Am I just afraid of death?  Am I just afraid I have missed something?

Yesterday 45 refugees including 17 children died trying to cross from Turkey to Greece.  A 3 year old got lost in Tennessee and died.  My “wants” list seem so trite.