Writing a blog is hard!
I hate to start with the conventional starts… I am a school teacher…
I am a mom of three… I am married… I live in Massachusetts.
I am all of those things but none of it really describes me.
I want to live to 120. I recently passed the 50 mark and it scared me. Am I at the half-way point? What’s the second half like? I don’t want to get old. I don’t want to get diseases and lose mobility or my senses. I want to experience more.
I want to lose weight. I have joined fitness programs and lost weight but it doesn’t last. I have gone on too many diets to list. I hate feeling unhealthy. I want to start a new career. I have been a lawyer, a stay-at-home mom and now a full time teacher at a public school. I just completed a program to become an administrator but is that really the change I want? I want to move out of cold Massachusetts. I want to live on the beach on an island. I want to make a change in the lives of the children I teach. I want to be a good role model for them and inspire them to make a difference. Are these desires at cross purposes?
Am I just afraid of death? Am I just afraid I have missed something?
Yesterday 45 refugees including 17 children died trying to cross from Turkey to Greece. A 3 year old got lost in Tennessee and died. My “wants” list seem so trite.